it's all abt me

2006-01-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH
OH MY GOSH
OH.MY GOSHHHH!!

i'm like soooooo happy even until today:D
lol.
you wanna know why?
even if you don't want to,I'LL TELL YOU cause it is my blog!
hahaha.
ok i'm crappy.
sorreh:P

oh yes yes yes.
THE WHOLE TROMBONE SECTION IS VERY HAPPY RIGHT NOW.
when i was buying a drink at stall 1 mrs chua was behind me.
she tapped me and then she said: eh,trombone section now i see good improvement!i can hear you clearly already.keep it up and then be prepared for syf next yr!
OH MY GOSH.
I WAS SOOOOOOOO HAPPY.
i couldnt wait to tell the trombone section!
told adilah first.
both of us cried with tears of joy!
hahaha.
then told the rest.
AND NOW WE'RE VERY VERY HAPPY.
it's like,everything that happen was just meant to be
if you get what i mean.
like,in your face thing(:

anyway.
i left for home early.
i had high fever.
the journey home sucked.
i was like sneezing coughing and all that.
FELT LIKE I WAS GONNA FAINT!
reached home slept all the way from 11am-5.30pm.
WOOOTS.
but...
i totally missed rjc and singapore poly open house:(
oh nvm
SP OPEN HOUSE IS STILL ON TMR.
excited excited.
hahaha
alrite
i'm off!
BYE

2006-01-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

i was feeling kinda down in the afternoon.
was talking to theresa abt it during assembly
thanks theresa:D
i think she's just one of those few that although we're in different classes SINCE SEC 1,i can still talk to her abt things.
to think sometimes,ex-classmates who you were close to,can be so ~~fucking~~ sickeningly hopeless and you totally cant depend on them cause they have found a new social circle.
i am not pin-pointing.
so it's up to you to think.

band made me happy later on(:
music just makes me very happy i guess<3
today,i had my crunchie bar again!
poor clarice right after eating chocolate you choked on her drink and it gave her sore throat!
poor poor girl.
haha(:
OH YEAH,I HAD TO GO BACK TO ORCHARD AFTER GOING TO NEWTON TO GET HOUSE KEYS FROM MY MOM.
so stupid!
hahaha

well,i'm off.
BYEBYE(:

2006-01-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

this week is bully 3s2 week;D
wahahaha.
some ppl should get what i'm talking abt.
YEAH YEAH!

lately,band pracs have been so depressing.
i'm fed up with myself that i cant play loud enough.
I MUST PLAY LOUD.
THINK LOUD,ERZA.
THINK LOUDDDDDDDDD.
THINK,I WANT TO PLAY WELL AND MAKE THIS CONCERT THE MOST MEMORABLE ONE:D
it's called,BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.
heh(:
i'm so crappy.

today was an oh-kay day.
not that great day.
things happen which i shall not elaborate.

2006-01-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

blogging on behalf of miss pinnochio or better known in this blog as,fartassqueen!
hahahahaha..
i don't know what i'm suppose to write about but whatever.

CHEER UP,PINNOCHIO!
te quiero=D=D=D

ok so now i'm off!!!!!!!!!!!!
i like excessive punctuations,you get??
hahahaha!

-<3,YOUKNOWWHO=D

2006-01-14T17:53:00.000+08:00

CHEER UP,PINNOCHIO!

i love you.
wo ai ni.
te quiero.
je vous aime.
Ich liebe Sie.
L'amo.
Ik houd van u.
я люблю Вас.
Jeg elsker De.

that's all the languages that i could possibly think of right now=D

Te quiero y yo le prometo que yo siempre estaré por su lado.yo JURA te quiero, hasta el fin de tiempo=D
go check translation thing,ok?

¡AHORA, VITOREA ARRIBA!
and that means,NOW,CHEER UP!

ok,i'm offfffffff..

~~<3,ghettokid.muacks!~~

an e-mail like that,IT MADE ME SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR THE REST OF THE DAY:D
~~thank you,and i love you too and just as much or maybe more(:~~

2006-01-13T20:44:00.000+08:00

today was CCA day.
quite ok.
i screwed up Abba Gold,mama mia.
sorry people=(

after that i felt kinda bad i screwed up on that part.
eventhough,it was very minor.
but apparently,one mistake=someone cannot shut their fucking big mouth and made me upset more than fucking anything.

after the performance there was breaktime.
so i was like tell her,damn it.i totally screwed up that mama mia part.sry man.
you know what she fucking said?
YA LOR.i can totally hear your mistakes!so terrible!(intonation,MOCKERY)
excuse me,miss cannot-shut-up,but pls,SHUT UP(hahaa!)
i know i made a mistakes.
and it was bad
i know wani heard my mistakes.
eventhough wani heard my mistakes,she did not go to the extend of saying smth such as that.
SERIOUSLY,YOU HURT ME OK.
you're always mocking my section.
WHAT IS YOUR MOTHERFUCKING PROBLEM?
maybe,you mouth and brain just don't connect right.
you dunno what to say and what not to.
i know the trombone section isnt exactly fantastic like our past seniors.
but believe me,WE'RE WORKING REALLY HARD TO GET THERE AND WE SOMETIMES CRY BECAUSE WE CANT GET THERE AND WE'RE WORRIED FOR SYF,NEXT YR.
fuck you,seriously.
i don't think i wanna consider you a friend.
YOU DUN THINK B4 YOU ACT/SPEAK
oh yeah!
thanks for the bruise all because of the windbreaker zip that hit you on the cheek slightly.
it's better i tell the truth then keep lying

i'm so angry.
when i left for home,i totally stomped out of school.
to the extent that when i got home my mom still noticed my black face:/
ah whatever.
i'm off.
BYE

2006-01-12T21:50:00.000+08:00

today was a very tiring day.
school was hectic
so was band.
suppose to come for band prac this sat:(
but i cant.
tuition at 9am,11.30 piano lesson.
WTF!

after band when i got home.
i was crying like crap.
just read this:

EFIERA undictated history says:
you know after liyana gave that lecture right i went back home cried like crap pls
__douse yourself in cheap perfume it's so fitting says:
why?
__douse yourself in cheap perfume it's so fitting says:
pressure?
EFIERA undictated history says:
no not pressure la
EFIERA undictated history says:
i reflect la..like,if right now we cant even help jia hui with liyana around..how are we to help her when she's no longer around/
EFIERA undictated history says:
?*
EFIERA undictated history says:
we will all be so busy with slasse
EFIERA undictated history says:
classes*
EFIERA undictated history says:
then she alone there
EFIERA undictated history says:
and she likes to stare at her beautiful trees
EFIERA undictated history says:
then how are we to make it for syf.how are we to maintain the standards of crez trombone section!

yes,i'm that worried:/
sigh.
seriously i wonder what would happen to us.
maybe that's one of the reason why xi ling used to say,DON'T ALWAYS DEPEND ON YOURS SENIORS.THEY ARE NOT GONNA BE THERE FOREVER TO GUIDE.
shucks..
seriously it's kinda scary.
gahh.

i'm off to bed.
really shagged.
GD NIGHT!

2006-01-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

i've not had a very good time for starting of the week.
~~emo shits starts kicking in~~
i don't know what's up with me either.

i think it's you*
i think it's you* are the main cause of all this.
i don't even know what's going thru in that head of yours.
but i hope you will tell me smth soon:(

ok whatever.
i think this entry is just plain bullshit.
well,till then.
i better finish up my homework.
BYE.

2006-01-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

in the morning i was carrying a big plastic bag.
syira's and yongni's presents.
syira's bday was 2 weeks ago
yongni's one was uh..i'm too embarrassed to say.
hehXD

met syira on the way up to class
so straight away pass her the present
i bought chocs for natasha but ended up in syira's hands.
TSK SYIRA!
you kit kat chocolate stealer!

lessons was fun
enjoyed history,SURPRISINGLY.
got audrey neo.
hmm.
after recess,we changed seating arrangements.
sitting at the corner now!
YAYY!
sarah's my sitting partner.
hohoho.

a maths,i like(:
totally loving a maths:D
yes yes yes
you read that.
a maths finished at 3pm
called yongni and she was uhh,still not in school(LOSER!)

didnt go for band.
hari raya haji eve.
so yeah.
needed to help grandmama with the cooking.
around 3.20 left class with hanisah and met yongni outside school.
pass her present.
or should i say presents.
she had a last minute one.
MUAHAHAHAHA;D

went home.
blah blah blah
watched skeleton key(again)
so yeah,that sums it all up(:
BYEBYE

EYECANDY DISEASE IS CONTAGIOUS.
DAMN IT!
same person yet again.AYYEEE:(

2006-01-08T11:04:00.000+08:00

I WANT A NEW PHONE!
badly!
I WANT THE NOKIA 6111!
it's such a lovely phone!
dad said if i get my phone i cant get my crumpler bag.
OH MAN THIS IS EFFED UP!
rahhs.
hmph.
maybe i shall ask my dearest grandmama:D
call me thick skin.
hehe.

sometimes i just don't understand why people feel this way:/
sigh.

i'm off.

2006-01-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

i've been so busy with school i don't even have the time to update my blog!
oh gosh.
but first week of school was hectic yet fun!
my love for band has come back yet again!
HAHA.
so excited for band performance.
i really enjoy performing.
love love love it!

campfire night yesterday was good fun!
was very tired and not to mention sweaty with the carrying instruments and running around.
haha.
WE PLAYED THAT BOMBING BOMBING THING.
was so lame.
BAND BOMB BAND BOMB BAND TAKE AWAY THE BOMB.
we wanted them to stop.
so irritating!
lol.

we were the first item.
played ABBA GOLD!
that song is really tiring.
but i like it(:
very groovayye!
hehe.
then after that got ready for the fanfare.
the ncc march thing.
2 people standing by each door.
was kinda nervous cause i didnt know when then we would stop.
lol.

then after that kept instruments.
went up to gallery with hanis and the rest.
saw yongni,hakimah,theresa and janice.
hurhur.
was so tired with clapping and cheering then sat down.
blah blah blah.
yongni got bullied by me!
i like her pink watch!
I WANT!
she got boob smacked by candy.
PATHETIC LA THAT GAY WOMAN.
lol!
she also got bullied from..uh,meera i think?
hah.
then when everything ended.
i left.
so on so forth.
I WANT TO SLEEP RIGHT NOW.
tired!
GD NIGHT.

2006-01-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

first 2 days of school turn out pretty well.
i'm E Maths rep:S:S:S:S
i collect ppl's homework but i don't hand up my own!
HAHAHA.
enjoyed the first lesson of A Maths today.
really,i swear!
physics=mr keong=gayness=sleepy=i don't copy notes=I FAIL!
yikes.
i better start loving mr keong.
uhh,I MEAN PHYSICS.
i swear!:D

hanisah and i are minah partners(((:
gadis is my gila reggae woman!
michelle koh,xue li,marion,lydiawati and janice are corrupted members(:
AND I'M LYDIAWATI'S FAVOURITE CNME TEACHER!
hehe:D:D
all the private jokes among the lovelies made within 2 DAYS:D:D
miss hema malini rock socks!
I MEAN,HER MAJESTY.
hahaha:D
she's funkyy
i gotta study social studies today:S
A MATHS HOMEWORK!
ENGLISH HOMEWORK!
yikes.
sec 3 life IS killer

i might be closing down this blog.
the title's too cheesy,don't ya think?
so maybe you guys MIGHT have to link up soon.
but i may change my mind,darls(:

is this over for real?
pls tell me it's not:/
cause i think it's just a matter of finding this love back again.

2006-01-02T14:16:00.000+08:00

i think i gotta put my new year resolutions so i'll rmb what i'm suppose to do this year.
hahaha.
let's see..
1.pass my grade 6 piano exam
2.get better grades in studies
3.to hand in homework on time WITHOUT FAIL NOT EVEN ONCE!
4.get my ass to band EVERY SINGLE PRACTICE.
5.don't hog the TV and computer too often.
6.less towning.
7.save up 2000 bucks.
8.be a better person(!!!!!)

i guess that sums it all up,right?
i suppose so.
oh wells.

~~I LOVE MR JERMS!~~

2006-01-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

2006 has arrived.
i've learnt so many great thing in 2005.
i've met so many great ppl in 2005.
i've lost some tho...
nvm..

HELLO 2006.
and i hope this will be a better year(:

2005-12-31T16:11:00.000+08:00

jerms;D my current love.
lmao.
yes,i've finally realized why i'm STILL looking forward to watching honey movie even if it's the umpteenth time.
HE HAS GOT KILLER SMILE!
KILLER SMILE I SAY.
too bad if you don't agree.
cause i don't quite care.
hehe.

you're so semalam;D
ahem,think:bryanwar
=)

I DIDNT SEE MARK AT TOWN.
boo you mark!
oh,i got my wallet!
a nice nice wallet!
and now i'm caught in the middle.
shoe or crumpler bag?
BLEAHHH.
yeesh.
oh nvm.
anyway,I'M OUT!
see ya!

2005-12-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

i lost my voice in the morning:S
it's like that ashlee simpson case and then she had to lip sing and then ppl thought she was a fraud.
i think i drank a gallon of water to let this thing stop.
and i could finally talk at like wat 6pm?
YEESH.

I'M ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH YOU GOT SERVED RIGHT NOW.
very hooked!
especially,MARQUES HOUSTON!
he dances and sings well!
i didnt know he was omarion's bro.
awesome yo!
fo' sho!
CAUSE TODAY,YOU SUCKERS GOT SERVED!
SERVED!SERVED!
hahahaXD
yes,that's how hooked i am:D

~~i love jeremy(:~~

the other huda and i were remeniscing p6 days.
she was discussing a certain *ahem* of mine.
yeesh.
MUST YOU REMIND ME OF HIM,HUDA?
that asshole!
STUPID ASSHOLE!
hahaha.
GIMME SOME ~~loving~~ CHEESIN YO!
hahaha

2005-12-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

watched honey movie again for the umpteenth time
i think hispanic/nigger hip hop dancing dudes are absolute hotties:D
ABSOLUTELY HOT!
[points to a certain guy in the movie and starts drooling]
FREAK!
he looks like he's a hispanic+nigger.
OH,HOTNESS.

today..
i feel very angry,frustrated and fucked up.
i cannot take it anymore.

i love jerms(:

~~dear seniors,~~
please stop telling us to respect you if you do not deserve it.
i'm 14 and i think i'm old enough to know who i should respect and who i should not.
pls bear in mind that you are not our rulers.
our parents are anyway..
keep in mind what you say reflects who you are.
and therefore it creates and impressions on us.
and from there,WE JUDGE WHETHER YOU DESERVE OUR FUCKING RESPECT OR NOT.
yeesh.

2005-12-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

i feel very angsty.
and a certain someone just added to my anger.
kindly die you very unrealistic typical minah ferring!
pfftts.

i'm missing you.
where are you?

2005-12-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

growing up as a claustrophobic kid is never cool.
you are actually sometimes object of mockery among friends.
suddenly,i think i've become a very angsty/moody/stressed up ~~kid~~adolescent lately.

it suddenly became very disturbing and saddening for me that i'm a claustrophobic kid.
i still rmb when i was 7,i was brought to this playground in pasir ris park.
i went with my cousins and of course parents.
i was too young to be anywhere alone.duhh.
there was this thing called the "spider web" that you would have to climb and squeeze through and so on.
well,you get what i mean.
all my cousins could climb without any fear but i was still standing there putting my foot on the first rope.
i was most probably too young to understand at that time why i was so scared.
being the young kid that i was,i wanted to prove to everyone,i was just like one of them.
but i later started crying not even halfway through climbing.
i still had not found out what kinda fear i was going through.
and i heard words such as "chicken" when i left.
hmm.

at the age of 9,i was playing hide-and-seek with the neighbours.
my cousin told me to hide in the cupboard and so i did.
i realized my heart was pumping so fast and turning pale.
and another cousin realized i was in the cupboard.
i wanted to come out of the cupboard when game time was over but my cousin had been an idiot and had stood in front of the door and i couldnt come out.
i swear i thought i was gonna die because i was gasping for air and crying/shouting loudly
and my cousin had to shout "EEEYER.LOSER!"
my parents finally realized,i was just like my dad,claustrophobic.

recently,when i watched this movie,it had smth to do with this lady being stucked in an enclosed area.
i instantly switched off the tv because i could just feel the lady gasping for air.
it's scary.

all sorts of mockeries i've been through just because of claustrophobia.
but who cares,i cant hide it anymore and i wont hide it anymore.
hmm.

2005-12-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna go another day,
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
Seems like everybody's breaking up
Throwing their love away,
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
.You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby.
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you.

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
See the way we ride in our private lives,
Ain't nobody getting in between.
I want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)
And I say

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
.You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby.
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you.

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need (nothing else I can need)
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me.
I got you,
We'll be making love endlessly.I
'm with you (baby, I'm with you)
Baby, you're with me (Baby, you're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts.
So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

i love you*;

sue me for the cheesy lyrics.
but i have nth to blog abt.
and i happen to be looking at lyrics.
and this popped into my mind.
for bitches who view my blog and don't tag and cannot shut their mouth but must comment,
FUCK YOU, CHEEBYE WITH THE BAPOK SIAM MATAIR.

i'm very angsty today.
and i don't know what's the cause of all this:/

2005-12-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

finally got out of this stupid house today.
met lisa and asilah at khatib around 10am.
headed for NLB.
that place that is funkeh.
i should say that it was rather productive.
since well,i finished my english homework and maths assessment A and B paper 1!

around 12 plus,asilah and i got hungry.
hehh.
so headed for SIN LANE(that is esplanade)
all the good stuffs are there don't you agree?
haagen dasz,mrs fields,chocz and so on..
haha..
bought double fudge brownie from mrs fields.
yummayye.
lisa bought i dunno how many cookies.
was like 8 or smth?
haha.

then headed for marina square.
we had a dilemma whether to eat at ljs or cavana.
so,coin toss.
haha.
CAVANA IT WAS!
oh yayy.
ate black pepper fish hotplate.
was so freaking full after that.

from marina square headed to the bus stop outside millenia walk.
we didnt know where to go.
we kept missing 961.
cause we were camwhoring!:P
all thanks to asilah's camera!
hahaha.
and believe me,we were "I CANT BELIEVE I WAS A MINAH FOR THAT DAY!" :P:P
that well excludes lisa.
took tons of pic.
very funnayye tho.

then after that finally took 961!
alight at this bus stop before kallang mrt station.
we ended up taking mrt to woodlands.
lol.
asilah bought her cds.
and then it was home.
tired.

~~my mom pisses me off~~
ah,forget it.

cant wait to see the pics.
IT WAS SO MINAH LA.
like people otak tak betol,you know?
haha.
alrite that's all.
BYE!

you're serenading me with your singing and piano playing,love:/

2005-12-25T09:36:00.000+08:00

I DEMAND A SGH-E730!
i want that phone!
or someone could get me the walkman phone.
PRETTY PLEASE?
[big big smiles]
I'M ASKING YOU WITH SPONGEBOB BRIGHT EYES.
hehXD
ahh,whatever.
i'm bored:P
MERRY X'MAS ALL!

2005-12-24T20:41:00.000+08:00

*insert name here* says:
eh,i found out sth.my uncle's a muslim but not a real muslim.
;it's the simple things in life that we forget says:
maksod u?
*insert name here* says:
it's the kadiyani or sth.where they believe got 26 prophets.
*insert name here says:
last one's from india.
;it's the simple things in life that we forget says:
oh.that version of muslims XD
*insert name here* says:
cool ah.i nak gik check it out.maner tau,i might be the 27th
;it's the simple things in life that we forget says:
HAHAHA.big joke big joke:P
*insert name here* says:
ape?
;it's the simple things in life that we forget says:
well,if you were the 27th,then prophets would have a different meaning,hun.
*insert name here* says:
:( dah ah.malas nak layan you.tak baik ah.i betol2 you macam ni.
;it's the simple things in life that we forget says:
i playing only la!abeh merajok.takpe2 i pujok:P
*insert name here* says:
betol? oh yayy!

you're my number one entertainer,love(:
we can so tolerate each other's crap:D
<3
(name's have been undisclosed cause..AH YOU DUN NEED TO KNOW DO YOU?)

today,went to grandma's place.
to celebrate my grandad's 69th bday!
OH YAYY.
actually,he's officially 69 tmr.
YES,HE WAS BORN ON 25TH DEC AND THAT IS X'MAS.

met the cousins.
very hilarious ppl.
love you guys loads!
:D:D
mom made blueberry cheesecake with oreo base and aunt made chocolate fudge cake.
so we had like 2 cakes.
apparently they didnt plan who was suppose to bake the cake.
TSK.
haha.
but turns out,hungry monsters attacked the cake soon enough till the plate was absolutely clean!
haha.
reached home aroudn 6plus.
watched movie.
and now hear i am.
oh yayy.
whatever.
don't wanna blog anymore.
BYEEE!

2005-12-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

today is a very boring day.
i saw some nice t-shirts by a&f on ebay.
I WANT THEM.
damn it!
too bad i cant use my dad's credit card.
hehh.

hardly anyone is online today.
and i wonder why.
bahh.
i miss *insert name here*
=(

i cant wait to study on monday.
SERIOUSLY.
i cannot wait to study on monday at changi airpot.
among all places.
hehh.

and sometimes i wonder why things end up like this.
sigh:/

2005-12-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

going changi airport to docomplete a lil more questions for my homework.
heh.
yes,very weird place.
changi airport.
but oh nevermind.
nice place to chill at anyway.
lol.

I GOT USHER'S THE TRUTH TOUR DVD ALREADY!
he's got nice pecs pls:D:D
and he is simply THE BEST THING.
which piece of idiot who listens to rnb and say usher cannot sing live..
YOU ARE SERIOUSLY TONE DEAF.

i think today is a very happy depressing day for me.
*insert name here* was there to crack me up again.
but soon had to leave to finish up the project.
bahh.

I WANNA WATCH MY USHER DVD AGAIN!
it's basically cause of the good sounding band usher has:D
then my dad was telling mom:this is what your daughter wants to be.the sound engineer of such shows.
and my mom had the least interest in it.
GEE,THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT

2005-12-22T15:14:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-12-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

changed skin.
i think ohjetlove is simply amazing.
yeapp(:

you cant comment unless you have a blogger account.
which most of you do.
i'll get a proper hell-o-scan soon.
hmm.

ok,whatever.
blog when my life gets slightly interesting.
oh yayy

2005-12-22T11:33:00.000+08:00

*insert name here* says:
back.brush my teeth ah
eRza you fix me just to break me again later says:
it's 3.15am and u just brush your teeth?weird.
*insert name here* says:
sigh that's the life of a 16-year-old boy wizard.
*insert name here* says:
eh,i meant musician:P *feeling harry potter kejap*
eRza you fix me just to break me again later says:
wizard?uhh,you think you harry potter isit!hehh
*insert name here* says:my dog watching harry potter outside so macam terdengar.hehe*points to dp* that's him right there
eRza you fix me just to break me again later says:
aww.sooo cute.
eRza you fix me just to break me again later says:
no not you,it's the dog:P:P
*insert name here* says:
oh.*ahem* i was just abt to thank you.
eRza you fix me just to break me again later says:
oh gosh.so cutee.
*insert name here* says:
oh me?yeah i know i'm cute.hehehe

on such lonely early mornings,like 3.15am,you still can crack me up:D
~~itulah yang buat kamu amat mengagumkan,ya?XD~~
<333

i dunno why but everytime i read that conversation it just tickles my tickle bone.
hah.
wtf.
this is absolutely crazy.
well,just like me anyway.

emo stuffs are going away.
i suppose it was true.
it's just a phase that people have to go through sometimes.

i don't know what else to blog abt.
hehh.
so i guess,i'm off.

2005-12-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

today was very boring.
like,really really boring.
BAHH.

lisa asked me to follow her and go do her x'mas shopping.
but uh,she hasnt contact me and x'mas is in a few days.
make that 4 to be exact.

a sudden emo-ness lately,if you'd like to call it that.
random crying.
random screams.
random "oh what the fuck" are all coming out from me.
this is just getting out of hand.

i needed someone to talk to but i suppose TV was much more important for you huh?
well,fuck you.
seriously.
i was telling you halfway how i felt and then you said "i gotta go.TV!"
gee,FUCK YOU.
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
i really needed help.
i'm not angry that you left for TV.
cause well ppl need time out sometimes.
I'M ANGRY ON THE FACT THAT YOU LEFT FOR TV HALFWAY WHILE I WAS TALKING SO I BET HALF(MAYBE,WHOLE) TIME YOU WERE NOT LISTENING.
fuck you.
i wouldn't think you're a friend.
really.

khairul,sorry to hear the bad news.
cheer up,k?
everything will be fine soon(:
<33
~~now that i know about it already,i love you*thank you so much for sticking by me.you* wont become something of my past,i promise.~~

2005-12-21T14:57:00.000+08:00

i've sat down and thought it through.
i shall just accept things as it.
i'll let you be what you want.
i'll accept you as who you are.
:D

today,i went really high.
jasmine knows why.
oh man.
i should shut up cause all those reading my blog would think i'm crazy.
i went seriously high.
***=ERZA GOES HIGH=SCREAMS LOUDLY=BLASTS LOUD MUSIC
madness.

FRUITY LOOPS IS SO COOL!
i know the name is weird.
but it's a software to create beats.
it's professionally known as,FLStudio.
haha.

~~and i don't want you* to become my past.~~
~~stick by me,will you*?~~

2005-12-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

OH YAYY!
did radio show with iffah today!
absolutely great fun!
turns out a lot of stuffs were impromptu.
lol.
funny.
AMI'S VERY HORNY.
and i finally got his dumex joke!
ami says,i'm high on dumex!
which is..the milk.
HEHH.
get it?
lol.
yes ami is very horny!
jia ying called!
ami called!
YAYY.
thanks you guys for tuning in to iffah and i ok?
<333
~~i was very pissed with a certain someone during that radio show~~

i'm really caught up with SAE.
i hope they have a seminar soon again!
it'll be fun:D:D
oh hell yeah!
studying some stuffs abt audio engineering.
did research on internet.

and i'm so afraid you'll turn your back on me just like the restD:
bahhh.

i really wish i could blog longer like usual..
BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO BLOG ABT.
hahaha.

2005-12-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

during my most boring moments,
blogging seems to bring A LOT OF ENTERTAINMENT.
:D

i was sitting down looking at almost dead com screen and i realized a lot of things were running through my mind.
one of which was how a person can be so different with one group and the other.
i find it weird that people have split personalities(not because they're psychotic whatsoever) just to impress or well click with both groups.
it's kinda creepy how ppl can actually do that.
especially if both groups that one is in have absolutely different preferences and personalities.
i sometimes wonder,why do people do such things?
is it for acceptance?
i am not too sure.
i'm very much the same wacky me be it with 6n'03 or g2'0405 clique(:
and i can gladly say,i'm rather happy with that:D
ok,close subject.
i don't want anyone to uhmm..i dunno wat's the english word right now.
hehh.
in malay it's "teraser"

today i went to macs at BPP with iffah.
VERY BENIFICIAL TALKING.
haha,YEAH RIIGHT.
with iffah,all my craps came out.
yet again.
lolXD
that girl cracks me up!
yayy!
<333
BRYAN WAR GAME SOON BABE:D:D

~~i think she's forgotten who herself is:/~~
i need not mention what you've done wrong.
you'll fall soon enough.

you wouldnt believe i fell for you**

2005-12-19T16:37:00.000+08:00

i nearly overslept and couldnt make it on time for band:/
but!
i turned out to be the first in the section to arrive!
OH YEAHH:D
haha,ok wth.

i'm *still* thinking a lot abt SAE.
whoa.
very caught up seh.
hmm.
i just cant wait to go SAE!:D:D
la selle's so over right now.
because i realized even if i was doing it,i was somehow forcing myself to do it.
weird,yes?
ah,THAT'S ME FOR YOU!

i *finally* bought my school books today.
it's VERY VERY THICK AND HEAVY.
oh nvm,books for 2 years anyway

and i must save 2000 bucks in 2 years.
cool.
that's well rather easy.
hehh.
unless for splurging bitches then you damn well have a problem
HAH.

somehow,i feel she's forgotten her real self.
she's even left reality and went to dreamland:/
sometimes,changes can be creepy.

2005-12-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
i slept from 7.30pm-1.30am.
and then i woke up(that's why i had time to blogged)
i was blabbing abt SAE to jas.
she seems really supportive of me and she's NO TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN THINKING!
THANKS JAS FOR LISTENING TO MY CRAP!
so i played the com from 2am-5.15am.
i fell asleep at abt 5.30am.
and nearly got kicked out of bed for waking up at nearly 10am.
my mom thought i had slept from 7.30pm-10am
-__-
i'm no big sleeper!
hahaXD

this morning at 3plus am i just turned down a pay of 700 dollars just to do some singing for suria project:S
uhhh.
thanks for the offer khairul,but i wouldnt want to be heard on a SUPERHERO KIDS THEMED SHOWxD
so i just i like lost 700 bucks.
bahh.
ah,nvm
and i'm employed even b4 i started schooling in SAE.
my employer says he's willing to wait 3 years.
oh hail the very patient khairul.
kwang2.
HIS DOG,MARSHALL(yes,it's eminem's real name) IS SO ADORABLE!
watches harry potter dvd at 3am or smth like that!
AHHH,CUTE THANG:D

i dreamt abt SAE twice!
one was my part 1 sleep.
second one was the part 2 sleep.
very funny.
i dreamt i was working at the studios:S
uhh,i shall not elaborate any further.

sometimes with so little information,people can predict and sometimes assume so much.
sigh.
it's just weird at times.
i've a learnt a very gd lesson once.
assuming's just W-R-O-N-G(:

IFFAH,DJING SOON BABE!
oh i didnt think you'd wanna come to SAE and stuffs.
lol.
there's always next yr babe!:D
<333

2005-12-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

uhhh.
nono,i didnt think you all were abnormal.
i felt very uncomfortable already at that time :S
and they were looking very funnily at she and i.
and so we headed for hmv.
but i suppose we were in the wrong.
truly am very sorry if i spoiled that outing ok?
:D

today,or should i say yesterday(since it's already 1.47am)
i went to SAE!
and that is,School of Audio Engineering!:D:D
they had this thing called "study with SAE for a day"
there was film-making or audio engineering.
CLEARLY,I WENT FOR AUDIO ENGINEERING!
haha.
so i came with my dad.
then met this guy called sufian.
kwang2.
he was an ex-student at SAE and now working there.
so he was talking and my ears opened really big when he said:
you know right,ppl come here to record their school songs,audio engineers make up sound perfect and *boom* 5000 BUCKS IN YOUR HAND!
clearly i went WHAT?!
haha.

nah,but it aint abt the cash.
it's abt the passion.
uhh.
there were 2 mat reps:S
but whoa,not bad not bad.
gd mat reps.
interested in this kind of thing!
OH HAIL THOSE 2 MAT REPS
yes,i'm respecting everyone who shares the passion as i do.
haha..

k anyway we went to studio1.
that was the place to do recording.
WHOA,I WAS IN RECORDING STUDIO.
haha.

it was seriously cool.
like,the guitar is plugged in into the computer.
and with this software,u can actually edit the sound of the guitar.
so like,you take any electric guitar,you can have different2 guitar sounds.
cool cool.

then we had to watch this video-clip that had no sound.
so they were gonna put some song into it.
damn cool ok!
sufian plays the guitar pretty well,i must say.
then this guy(uhh,i forgot his name.HECK.) played the drums.
pretty good man!

u can make communication with the person inside(a band,let's say) with the SSL and mixing console outside.
darn it,i'm sure some dunno what i'm talking abt.
haha.

anyway,after mark finished briefing us,it was patrick's turn.
i think patrick's been in the industry way longer.
he's a senior lecturer over at the school anyway.
haha.
so he was telling us abt folly artists.
i'm lazy to elaborate.
so whatever.
there's seriously a million things to audio engineering!!
i love i love!
after everything was explained,we went downstairs to the lecture room.

had some briefing with alex abt the courses,school that they are affiliated to blah blah blah.
the president of the school,TOM MISNER!,has done songs for kylie minogue and many many others,which i currently cannot rmb.
but it's alrite anyway.
after that we went up back again and was shown the other studio.
the SSL there was new!
it cost..uhh....S$150,000.
[faints]
so yeah,the SSL is for you to like to make sure all your sounds,is in proportion.
mixing consoles and so on.

after that everything was summed up and i found one new thing.
I LOVE SAE.
audio engineering is what i really wanna do!
you get to do something you love(MUSIC-MAKING!),get paid,known and respected for it:D
there's nth more i could ask.
imagine one day you pick up a CD and you read the info and then it says "sound designer:ERZA EFIERA RAZAK"
whoa!
haha.
at least now i know i'm on the right path and know where i'm heading to:D
i wanna go EMP course!
but i have to wait 2 more years.
nvm!
SAE HERE I COME.
JC GO AWAY.

2005-12-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARINA!:D
<3

purple just for you ok(:
lol.
you're already 14!
be more giler ok?!
like me like this:D:D
heheh
djing's sooo fun.
but it cant be as fun without iffah :(
that MSS of mine is away.
rod camp.
blahhhh.

thanks to farina,iffah,michellekoh,marion,huda,khairul and hairil for listening to me djing.
FARINA SAYS I GOT THE DJ VOICE AND SLANG.
wth!
haha.
and khairul says I GOT NICE VOICE.
wahahahaha.
ok.
weird.
I'M JUST DOING IT FOR FUN AND SELF-AMUSEMENT OK!

2005-12-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

hey people.
check out...
http://fiezieshow.blogspot.com
it's my radio blog(:
i'll be on air from 10.30am-1pm tmr alrite?
so catch me there!
the blog's still plain.
i'm doing it up(:
playing all sorts of genres.
so you guys can go there and request songs too!:D
there's a chatroom so yeah(:
MUST VIEW K.
i will be online and i would usually put on my PM whether i'm online or not.
OK?!
VIEW K!
<3
BYEE!

2005-12-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

IFFAH'S *still* MY MINAH SHIOK SENDIRI.
and i think FARINA is becoming my ULTIMATE MELTING PARTNER!(look farina,PURPLE!wahaha)
hahahah.
yes,BRYANWAR IS JUST SIMPLY HOTNESS:D

hmm.
i'm low in cash but i still gotta shop tomrrow!
i gotta get that top and my shoes!
i gotta go to holland village to get the right one:S
mommy says,I'VE GOT EUROPEAN FEET
whoa.
so honoured.
-____-
must have been my portugal hereditary.
YAYY to whoever was my great grandma.
ya,i still dunno what's her name.
and she's only my great grandma.
BAHH

and i just wanna play BRYAN WAR game all day with IFFAH!
ohhh.
iffah's a dj!
SO KEWLXZZ~~
hahaha!

i'm out.
first time slightly longer entry:O:O
BYEE

and yes,you can sense the hyperness!:D

2005-12-13T12:20:00.000+08:00

saving our planet is the thing to do...
polluting and *dunno what* is not the way..
HERE'S WHAT CAPTAIN PLANET HAS TO SAY!

oh my gosh.
ISABELLE REALLY GOT ME HOOKED ON IT.
:D:D
I MISS CAPTAIN PLANET.
as a child,I LOVED THAT CARTOON CAUSE I THOUGHT HE WAS MACHO.
wtf!
hehe

life's getting boring.
bahhhh

2005-12-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

isabelle's nickname "captain planet" reminded me of that cartoon character and she got me stuck with the theme song.
WTF!
HAHA.
rmb that cartoon show whereby "captain planet" will come to the rescue whenever there's pollution?
LOL.
captain planet..he's the hero...gonna take pollution down to zero...
WAHAHA.
i'm really stuck onto that song
ISABELLE'S FAULT.
oh god.

anyway.
EFIERAKINAH ARE NOW MINAH SHIOK SENDIRI
but nvm
SO FUN:D:D
MUAHAHA!
<3333333

CAPTAIN PLANET HAS A WHITE FACE AND GREEN HAIR
AND I RMBED THERE WAS AN EVIL LOOK ALIKE WHO LOVED POLLUTION.
wtf.
BYEEE:D

2005-12-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

SWIMMING IS LOVE:D
and i must go for training!

EFIERAKINAH ARE THE BEST!
RIGHT,IFFAH?!

so yesterday i was spending time browsing the net when i found eyecandies.
LOL
that hot new swimmer,bryan tay.
MUAHAHA.
his blog is damn worth it!

:D:D

EFIERAKINAH!<33333

2005-12-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

i busted my leg at east coast park while i was skating.
oh what the hell!
was skating with my cousins and then i trip over some stupid rock.
fell on the side of my right leg and i was sliding.
WTH!
and my right leg is totally scratched.
skin peeling.
and it's bruised.
IT'S BUSTED.
gahhh.
today ecp was pretty fun.
except the last part cause of my stupid leg.
RAHHH!
i saw some hotness too(:
HEHH.

oh,WATCHING LIFELINE NOW!
justin's cuteXD XD
oh god,SUE ME I GOT BAD TASTE.
he's cute,ok!
hahahaha.

and i watched a really sad true life story while i was over in malaysia.
imagine you only have fried onions,little rice and sugar to eat everyday?
and it's only one meal per day.
imagine your school is so far away that you have to walk for about 40 mins?
imagine you have to go to rubbish to find cans and other metals stuff just to make 32 bucks to last a week?
imagine you're discrimnated cause of your status?
damn life's unfair
man i totally cried when i watched that show.

OH MY GOD JUSTIN'S SO BLURLY CUTE:D
and the show had to fucking end.
GAHHH

I WANT A CLIQUE DINNER!
I WANT MY P6 CLASS GATHERING!
rahhh!

lifeline just finished.boohoo.

i *still* love you ghettokid,ok?(:

2005-12-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK FROM MY TRIP:D
absolutely awesome!
i saw cows and sheeps and lambs by the side of the roads!
HAHA
kampong areas.
my dad drove a total of 1500km plus.
AWESOME.
bought some nice clothings.
bought gd food.
spent spent spent.
haha.
3 days 2 nights.
I MISSED MY CAT ALONG THE WAY:D
i'm finally home.
ppl are telling me stories.
and she's FUCKING cheap(:

i love you* and i think i missed you* along the way<333>

2005-12-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

i never really saw it that way.
just thought you never really wanted to hang out.
sryyy.
<333

i'll be away for 5 days.
MISS ME PLEASE:D
haha!

2005-12-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

morning started out really ~~bad~~ HORRIBLE.
i dunno why.
i most probably got up on the wrong side of the bed.
-___-
HMM.
later on my horrible morning turn out great when mom called and said "meet us at SWENSENS later"
MUAHAHAHA:D
yes yes.
dinner was absolutely MAGNIFIQUE xD
hoho:D
oh the joys of having such great parents.
AT SOME POINT ;P
alrite,I CANT BE BOTHERED TO BLOG ANYMORE.

i believe what ppl say and with sufficient information i think it's true.YOU'RE FUCKING CHEAP AND SLUTTISH.why don't you give yourself away and get yourself fucked upside down?SHEESH.if you like the guy,TELL HIM.if you wanna end the night hot and heavy,JUST TELL HIM.instead of showing your shits around ppl and make them feeling uncomfortable being around A CHEAP BITCH.need i emphasise?CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP.i think you don't even morth a cent!

2005-11-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY *belated* BIRTHDAY,ANDREA aka SADISTIC PARTNER-IN-CRIME!
hello!oh man,you're already 16!i'm only..uh..14!I'M NO LEGAL TEENAGE HAH!and,i'm such an airhead to have forgotten to bring your present to chalet.ANYWAY,now that you're 16 right,don't be so sadistic already!hahaha(: no more stupid art teachers to kill:P sry couldnt stay longerrr at your party.wasted wasted.nvm.haha.TAKE CARE,BABE!I LOVE YOU:D

so yeah.
met farina at 3 at admiralty mrt station.
headed for chalet at pasir ris.
i was a fucking lost asshole around there.
HEHH.
so finally met andrea.
her frens,absolute crazy bunch!
haha.
then chipmunk msg farina.
ask to go to bugis.
so met nad there.
hohoho.
walk walk walk.
we walk i dunno how many rounds around that area and nad finally settled on this skirt.
pretty.
haha
ate at mcdonalds.
and farina's two brothers came.
rossafiq is just funny.
his eyes got so big when i offered mcwings.
HAHA.
finished eating nad and farina when camwhoring.
i left for some reason and i think farina is correct.
HAH.
alrite a lot of blogging already.
NO MORE PASSWORD HONEYS:D

2005-11-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

i don't even know why i put the password.
i guess it's just too waste ppl's time and my time.
heh.
feeling exceptionally moody today.
rather unexplainable.
somehow just now i was being so random i started hating everyone.
funny.

i won a copy of simon webb from mtv.
believe me,i never thought i would win.
very random way to join a contest actually.

~~and somehow,i don't wanna trust anybody anymore.~~
why you ask?
insecurity,i THINK.

2005-11-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

first shock of the day:gabriel linked me as "goth girl". OH,WTF SEH!i nono goth mr gabriel goh!
second shock of the day:mom is very fussy abt sofas.

k,enough crapping.
today mom was being a *beep* by not allowing me to go for the drama.
grarrs.
whatever.

wheeeeeeeeeeheeeee(:
i'm a very happy girl eventhough i didnt start my morning well.
:D

BYEzxzxzxz :P

2005-11-25T12:51:00.000+08:00

i was asking my mom's opinion abt underage clubbing(AHEM,LEGAL MIND YOU) and i had one hell of a lecture.
she blabbed and blabbed saying there was a necessity for me to go to chinablack to have gd fun.
UGH.
why was i born the only kid and with parents who cared A LIL TOO MUCH.
sure,sue me.
ppl are most probably saying "BE THANKFUL,BITCH!"
to add more to my misery,she said..
THERE WILL BE ABSOLUTELY NO CLUBBING FOR YOU TILL YOU REACH 16
THANKS A LOT MOM.
gee.

and sometimes i think you're cheap and slutty,girlfriend.
sry.

2005-11-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

NICK LACHEY AND JESSICA SIMPSON HAVE SPLIT:O
major shocking news.not...
this time it is for real.
e!entertainment NEVER(let me emphasise it again:NEVER) lies.

i was listening to the same song with jolynn.
and we were listening to EXACTLY the same part.
talk abt coincidence:/

i'm suppose to be at town now.
but a certain someone had a last minute change of plans.
so therefore abandoning me and leaving me all alone at home:(

chinablack's party is today.
DAMN IT.

i'm just glad this didnt end(:

2005-11-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

today.
very tired.
yes i dont know why but today town didnt seem like such a gd idea.
haha.
met farina at 2 plus.
then went to eat.
at uhm,lucky plaza.
then after that,
NEOS!
ok the neos look surprisingly good.
hahaha.
hmm.
then after that A LOT OF AIMLESS WORKING
oh,i saw mark!
and yes i asked him and he said it was him.
lol.
how can i not recognize him?
gah.
hmm.
walk walk walk.
then took train.
wanted to go citylink.
but both decided to go home instead.
haha.
farina dunno go where la!
gahhh.
well lazy to blog.
byebye!

2005-11-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY *belated* BIRTHDAY YONGNI!
sry i couldn't write this post earlier.
hehe.
ANYWAY,YOU'RE 17 NOW!like,WOW.so fast eh!hmm,well after almost 2 years of knowing the monkey in you,YOU'RE ACTUALLY NICE LA OK!hahahaha.anyway,hope you had a great time for your bday!SURPRISE THAT I ACTUALLY RMBED RIGHT!and also,PLS PLS PLS BE MORE MATURED AND STOP HAVING KIDDISH FIGHTS WITH ME LA!tsk!AND,I DON'T LIKE HER NOR HER OK!and,what's with the HOUGANG CHALET?!<33

ok today had trombone workshop.
QUITE interesting.
just quite.
not very.
hehe.
YES LA NURUL HAKIMAH,WE MISSED YOU LA.
hahaha!
k very tired.GOOD NIGHTS:D

2005-11-20T11:09:00.000+08:00

i hope i can go to drea's party.
REALLY WANNA SEE HER!:D
wheeeee.
yes darl,you still owe me outing.
hehe.
i'm being such a pest:D

you're the best robber around 'cause you stole my heart=)
RIGHT HOR,NANI?
hahaha.
HOR HOR HOR HOR HOR xD

certain things in life just cant make you stop thinking. D:

2005-11-19T14:09:00.000+08:00

YES,FARINA I CRIED AT THAT PART.
when harry potter came back from that graveyard place la.
THEN CEDRIC DIED.
so sad right!!!

hmm:D
something came up on my mind.
interesting.
ok nvm.

I MISS NANI.

2005-11-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

OH MAN!
I GOT INTO 3S3!
the option that i wanted.
lol.
though ppl might think,IS SHE KIDDING ME?3S3?
but hey,THAT'S WHAT I WANT.
and pls teachers,STOP DISCRIMINATING.
:D

hmm,today i couldnt be bothered to go to school.
so asked farina to check out wat class i got into.
was kinda happy.
hahaha.
but somehow i wanna go 3s2.
HMM.

so at 1.30pm(ok i was late this time,NOT FARINA.great achievement farina!) met farina at orchard.
bought tix for HARRY POTTER MOVIE!:D
i like i like.
wheeee.
the movie was really fantastic!
I LOVE IT!
i just realize rupert is hot in his own way.
so is daniel.
but somehow,NO ONE BEATS THAT MR CEDRIC IN THE MOVIE.
i wonder what's his real name.
SO HOT.
got one part i cried.
OK,FARINA SHOULD NOT KNOW THIS.

CEDRIC IS SO HOT:D

PEOPLE CAN BE SO MEAN AND SO NO GUTS,RIGHT YONGNI?
hahaha.

2005-11-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday outing.
quite fun.
lazy to elaborate.
lol.

you said i could always talk to you when i was down.
but to start off with,DO YOU EVEN LISTEN?

thanks naniee!(:
love you!:D
you really made my day yesterday.
muacks:D

2005-11-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i am here and why i am doing this but lisa asked me to do this.GAHHHH

RULES OF THE GAME:
1. post five weird/random stuff about yourself
2. at the end of your post, list the names of 5 people who you want
3. next to do this and leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules

five weird/random stuff about me:
1.I'm claustrophobic believe or not.yes.only god knows how fast my heart is pumping when i'm in the old-age lift.heh.
2.I stalk pretty girls.
3.I find people with twins very hot.HAHA.
4.I'm still a child at heart who enjoys hi-5.AT TIMES,THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
5.I wanna make it big in the music industry someday and want to go to US to study.
ok,it's really random and weird:D

next 5 people to do this quiz:
1.Andrea.
2.Prithika.
3.Jessica.
4.Syira.
5.Theresa.

2005-11-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

i hate you,~~lintayye~~
OH,SUE ME I'M JUDGING EVENTHOUGH I HARDLY KNOW YOU.
sue me that i've only met you once and i ~~dislike~~HATE you a lot.
too bad man.
you're just a plain bitch.
you're merely chasing my poor-already-blinded-by-bitchy-linnette because of his damn money.
i think it's clear to everyone.
all those i've talked to agree with me.
abstinence makes the heart grow fonder?
HAHA MAYBE NOT FOR YOU.
yours would be..
money makes the heart grow fonder and makes my potential boyfriend's eye blinder.
HOHO.

I HATE LINTAYYE.
BUT...
I LOVE SYIRA AND I MISS SYIRA.
gahh.
happy now my dear?

2005-11-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

just came back from airport.
sent aunt rizah and mischa off.
they're most probably still on your flight.
i suppose mischa's sleeping already.
haha..
yeah,i was kinda crying went mischa and aunt rizah left.
they were here for a month or so and time seems to past so fast.
and i wouldnt be seeing them for another year.
and i was very close to mischa.
all the more i'd feel sad.
grandmom's house reallyyy quite without her.
ah anyway.
very boring saturday.
piano lesson as usual.
nth else.

same with that bullshit.
just the same shameful you.
oh,~~fuck~~ you.

2005-11-12T00:40:00.000+08:00

very bored.
very tired.
VERY PISSED.

why do you make things so complicated when it was all clear from the start?
you say i would never understand you.
maybe it's because..
YOU HAVE NEVER EVER TAKEN THE INITIATIVE TO EXPLAIN,DAMN IT.

when grandmom's house today.
aunt rizah and mischa is living tmr.
BOOHOO.
gonna miss them.
aint gonna see them for another year.
shucks.
ah wells.
no one's online.
SO UPSETTING.
gahhhh.
ah wells.
bye.

2005-11-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

i officially like LIFELINE.
i don't care even if i've only watched the first episode.
i know and i can ASSURE you i'll like it in the future:D
that guy's so freaking cuteeeeee!
his name on the show is "jamal"
what an un-hot name D:
I SHALL NEVER MISS A SINGLE EPISODE OF THAT SHOW:D
whoopeeee!

2005-11-10T17:33:00.000+08:00

i didnt go for band today!
i like totally overslept!
at 12.00 or so and called hanis!
YES I JUST WOKE UP AT THAT TIME.
oh my goodness.
i'm how dead!
ROOORAAA.
so i was home alone throughout with simply nth to do.
gosh damn it!

why do you keep running through my mind?
this just sucks.
i should be over this by now.
D:

2005-11-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

THANKS CP FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL BLOGSKIN!(:
i absolutely love it! <333>
so anyway,i just got home from aunt's house.
LIKE,HOW LATE.
gee.
uncle mike's going back to australia tmr=(
auntie rizah and mischa is going back to australia on saturday=(
boohoo.
today didnt see any cousins except mischa and ed.
very boring.
mother's side.
what's new.
if go father's side i got fik and fana!:D
I WANT MORE HARI RAYA JALAN JALANXD

LUMBAJACK EH ASILAH?!
jom kita lumba lumbaXD

i shouldnt be feeling this way abt you.
but why do i?
it's wrong on so many levels.
even if i were to tell you everything,you'd never understand.
sorry i got you caught up in this.
D:

AND OH.
FARINA,I KNOW
IT'S A SECRET.

and i love jessica aka siao ah mawee:D

2005-11-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

i got nth to say.
except.
I MISS BAND.
boohoo.
THURSDAY,I MUST GO.

i'm really sorry but i just don't like you,lintayye.
there's nth you can do to change my perception abt you.
SORRY LA.
stupid stuck up bitch.

cousin,I LOVE YOU LA:D
i never hate you la!
i was just cranky?
muacks:D <3333

2005-11-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH I TOTALLY HATE YOU AND YOUR WHACKED GF.
like,FUCK YOU!
you totally cheated on everyone!
GAHHH

i forgot abt band today.GULPS

i love you,fik(: TAKE CARE OK!don't be so worried la!HAIYO.YOU IDIOTIC BOY.tsktsk!

2005-11-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

tiredddd today.
eventhough there werent much activities today.
woke up in the morning got ready for piano class.
wasnt looking forward to it actually.
killjoy!
kill my hari raya mood.
lol.
haha...
so the teacher said my aural is pretty good!
i got ~~good~~AMAZING vocals.
hahaha,EGO EGO.
jk jk yeah?
so anyway,finished class around 12.30
went to library to return my long overdue book.
LOL.
around 3 plus left home again.
picked up mak su's fam.
fariz was coming later.
hoho.
went to uncle khairil's house!:D
NICE FOOD.
like,REALLY REALLY NICE FOOD.
haha.
he catered from i-dunno-where.
lolXD
hanged around in the games room.
entertained young aiman playing xbox.
lol.
hady was fighting with him abt soccer.
TSKTSK.
haha.
abg fir was there with his wife.
HIS CUTEEEEEEEE SON WAS THERE.
yes,MY NEPHEW IS JUST SO CUTE:D
umarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr(: I LOVE UMAR:D
talk and played games a lot.
oh saw abg nazri and his HAWTZZZ gf.
lol!
left around 6 plus.
didnt get to see fik,fana and fathin!
miss those 3!
but they're coming tmr(:
YAYYY
OPEN HOUSE TMR!:D
woots!
gonna see my aussie+malay cousin(:
MISCHA MISCHA!(:
gonna take loads of pictures.
JUST OF MISCHA:D
hehe.
nth to say already.
very boring today.
hope to take a full family picture!
the last FULL family picture taken was in 1992?
gawdzzzz.
so long ago.
sheesh.
well,g2g now.
getting rather boring.
thanks for being there for me ghettokid(:
we're just meant to be right,bestie? <3>

2005-11-04T21:45:00.001+08:00

my legs are killing me right now.
HEELS ARE MAJOR TORTURE.
yeah,went to 3 houses today.
damn fun!
haha
so i woke up kinda late and mom was obviously screaming her heads off.
cleaned the house and stuffs.
open house this sunday!
YAYY.
ok so anyway,started going out around 2.
went to mak su's house!
met the 3 cousins.
fariz,hady and aiman!
fariz was being weird.
i dunno why.
aiman was wild.
and hady,plain sotong!
haha.
after that ate.
a lot!
i like mak su's cooking!
hahaha!
then around 3.30 we left to go mak long's house!
the 3 clowns followed my fam to take car.
parents took bus
reached mak long's house,SAW MY CUTE CUTE CUTE NIECE.
alisha!!
she's so freaking cute!
gahhhh.
abg nazri wasnt there.kluar ngan matair i think.hahaha.
then after that uncle khairil and mak teh came.
then UNCLE AND AUNTIE BLACK CAME!(ok,nvm)
so 3 more cousins came by.
fikri,farhana and fathin.
closest cousins!<3
abg firdaus wasnt there though.
hoho.
whole house was damn noisy.
the adults were talking VERY VERY LOUDLY.
after that fik was being irritating!
GAHHH.
everything also disturb me la that monkey!
read newspaper also cannot let me read in peace.
kick,step and push my leg.got so angry gave great red marks to him:D
hahaha!
then after that talk talk talk with farhana and fathin.
fik was being a baby.
ask me go kitchen take water for him.
like hello?!
i not very rajin you noe!
me:malas ah!suroh fathin ah!
fik:alah,die adek aku.sekali-sekali nak manje-manje ngan kau tak leh ke!
WAH LAU.
THAT BOY AH.
I SWEAR I WANT TO KILL HIM.
hurhur.
then after that everyone left for mak ngah's house!
I LOVEEE PAK NGAH'S COOKING!<33333
ate a lil bit only there.
SATAY SATAY!
homemade SATAY!
yayy:D
hahaha.
over there was even more fun.
abg acap not there.
only abg rizal.
HE GAVE ME MONEY!
whoa.
first year.
THANKS AH ABG!:D
hahah.
so after that left for thomson plaza.
needed to buy piano book.
so here i am right now.
whoa damn tired.
lol.
OUTING AGAIN TMR.
mak teh's house!
YAYY:D
maybe i'd see kaylie.
hmm.

2005-11-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!:D

i dun feel like elaborating much.
hari raya this year
QUITE INTERESTING.
wanna know?
you can ask me online.
i'd be more than glad to tell.
INTERESTING STORY.
very!
haha
alrite BYE!

HARI RAYA OUTING AGAIN TMR.
wheee.
COUSINS COUSINS!<3
i just lost 4 cousins and an uncle.
GULPS.
no they didnt die.
elaboration?
ask me.
LOL

2005-10-31T16:44:00.000+08:00

AIYAH! Sometimes I see so many minahs, got so many tattoos on her, sometimes I wonder-wonder if singapore not enough paper. I also sometimes see, they wear their skirt so short! WAH KANNINNA I shock! They not enough money to buy cloth!

WAHAHAHA THIS LYRIC FROM SOME SONG TOTALLY AMUSED ME!local kid.cute!:D lol.ok,that's all i wanted to say.it's a song abt MINAHS btw(: by hafiz asari(: WOOTS.

2005-10-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

i almost forgot.
i couldn't help but to be the moron i already am and laugh my ass of at this lady over at ikea who was having her haircut almost similar to gwyneth paltrow.
MY GOSH.
SHE LOOKED ALMOST AH LIAN.(how can that be?!gwyneth's no lian!)
i know paris hilton got the same hair cut,but trust me,that lady i saw was no paris hilton!
AND HER ENGLISH WAS NEITHER VERY PARIS HILTON-Y NOR GWYNETH PALTROW-Y.
lol.
she was a worker at ikea.
hoho.
and her english was hilarious.
instead of the typical sentence such as,can i help you? she says,can i be helping CHU?
and that totally cracked me up that day and i dunno why.
AH WELLS
THIS IS WHAT HOLIDAYS DO TO YOU.
A WHOLE LOT OF CRAP.
:D

2005-10-30T13:14:00.000+08:00

MY NEW SHOES AND I LOVE THEM!

hahaha.alrite i was sure bored!hehehe.anyway,i've changed my blogskin!i was tired of skins with image.i decided to do an imageless one.i almost when blind doing it because silly me wasnt using my specs while using com.ok,whatever.it's not even been a week into the hols and i'm already getting bored.somehow fasting stops you from having all the fun.maybe not.MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO STAY HOME AND HELP MOMMY CLEAN HOUSE AND DO KUEH.gahhh.i swear it's driving me up the wall.i had to clean the stairs railings(THE PROBLEM WITH MANSIONETTE HOUSES.sheesh!) and i had to go up and down up and down so that i can go to the nearest sink and clean the cloth and start my job all over again.and that it was off to vacuuming the house.CLEANING UP MY ROOM.finally!and after that,i sneakily told my mom i was gonna take a break when i actually i wanted to have a nice 4 hour sleep XD how nice of me.anyway,today is really boring!HARDLY ANYONE IS ONLINE.hoho.boring boring.hmm.i view some people's friendster profile.one of them was damn right atrocious!SHE'S GOT A STINKING PACIFIER IN HER MOUTH AND SAYS "I'M STILL A KIDD" with the inability to spell such a simple word as "kid",you can obviously tell she's a born ~*cUtiE gAlx!*~ gahh.click! you may view her unexplainable behaviour here:D alrite,i guess i was too bored that i did that.ah wells.i'd still recommend ppl the retardpatrol team.they're good.here! and from there you should be able to get to museum of twitz.i like that too:D hmm,alrite i'm done.for once i typed a decent blog post.hahaha.out!

2005-10-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

I BOUGHT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.
hahaha.
yes yes
i finally bought my shoes!
I LOVE IT
wheeeee.
ok,nvm
anyway
nth much happen today
sort of boring i guess.
and i'm so lazy to blog.
and,i cant get over the fact that there's no more g20405
BOOOHOO

2005-10-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

one important thing i found out today:

PARTY FOR THE UNDERAGED
FIRST EVER NON-ALCOHOLIC PARTY FOR
PEOPLE AGE 12 AND ABOVE.
FLING @ CHINABLACK. 24th NOVEMBER.
SOMETHING NEW FOR A DIFFERENT GROUP
OF PARTY PEOPLE
doors open at 8pm. party til' your hearts content because it ends at 4am!

second important thing for today is:
TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY WITH 2G2 BOOHOOHOO.
really gonna miss that wild wild class!
there were fucked up times and there were REALLY REALLY GREAT TIMES.
IYLIA,THANKS FOR THE BOAT AND THE ARTPAD GIRL!:D<3
hoho.
took lotsa pictures today!
lazy to upload currently
so anyway
today was really damn fun!
miss tan was in her brightest mood,i think
hehe
took some silly pictures.
HUGGED A LOT OF PPL!
i was filled with smiles instead of tears
i dunno why
i was really happy to see the class so...i dunno
JUST REALLY REALLY CLOSE.
hehe.
anyway
I LOVE,2G2
I DO I DO:D
alrite i'm out

2005-10-26T16:21:00.000+08:00

i ditched school today at 9.30.
germaine,morgan,lisa and belle left abt that time too.
i left with jan and hanis.
went to jan's house.
all 3 were pretty much tired.
watched corpse bride.
oh gosh.
that show is how stupid.
thank god i didnt watch it at the cinema.
hmm.
after finish watching,all were like abt to sleep.
lol.
end up played piano.
i tried,my heart will go on.
CMI( but i got home and tried again and it's good now:D)
lol.
then after that slack around again.
left at 12.00 or so.
didnt know where to go.
so hanis and i decided to go harbourfront!
all the way from boon lay to harbourfront.
was so crappy all the way!
we crapped like, A LOT.
hehe.
reached harbourfront we were like "EH,WHERE'S HARBOURFRONT CENTRE?LEFT,NO?RIGHT,NO?AIYOOO WHERE!"
haha.
and we realized we were already inside the building itself.
WHOA,WE WERE SURE DAMN BLUR.
lol.
hanis looked for handbag for hari raya.
i searched for shoes.
I FOUND NICE PUMPS.
AND CHEAP.
27.90:D
hanis saw one adidas handbag.
but it was a bit to casual for hari raya.
lol.
THE COCOA TREES WERE CALLING OUR NAMES,RIGHT HANIS?
man,i saw one bar of choc costing 5 bucks!
SHEESH.
how,CHEAP.NOT!
then we walk and walk and walk.
I SAW A LOT OF PUMPS.
damn nice!
mum says i can buy this weekend.
AND SHE SAID I CAN GET MY CONVERSE SNEAKERS:D
dun think i want the elle pumps anymore.
HOHO.
ah wells.
this post has been too long.
lol.
anyway,around 2 plus went back.
damn so shagged.
RAHHH

i never call you unappreciative bitch ah!you were the one who self-proclaim(er,can i say that?I DUNNO LA) that ah!so don't say my mouth very foul ok:D

2005-10-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

hey,silly,i did that artpad painter thing for everybody.
and i wrote almost the same message for everybody.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
IT WAS OUT OF COURTESY AND AS A FAREWELL THING.
goodness,if you didnt appreciate it,you could have just told me like how iylia did online(ONLY HER WAS THAT SHE WAS PLEASED WITH IT)
you could have just said:look,thanks for that but I DON'T LIKE YOU SO SHOOOOOO!AND I DUN WANNA END UP IN THE SAME CLASS AS YOU!
i wonder where you place your brain.
like you said,OTAK LETAK PAT BONTOT
trust me,everyone knows i don't wanna end up in the same class as you(:
because i would not want to have my last 2 years in crescent to be an absolute torture:D
and anyway,you werent the only one who received it.
so don't think i was sucking the butts out of you to be friends again
memang betol ah
if you can leave ~~hanis~~ because of one silly fight,you can leave anyone because of one of your silly fights!
CHIS!
TAK FORGIVING LANGSUNG.
KWANG KWANG!
hahahaha...

2005-10-25T13:27:00.000+08:00

i didn't go to school yesterday.
i didnt' go to school today either.
heh,is my mom nice or what?
she didnt even wake me up to ask me if i was going to school.
i just slept all the way till 10.30.
hohoho:D
i don't know what i've missed in school.
i don't care either!
i ain't gonna give a ~~FUCK~~ anymore.
lisa has this feeling i am gonna end up in the same class as her.
[GULPS]
OH NO!
2 MORE TORTURING YEARS WITH LISA!xD
haha,nah just kidding lisa:D
lol.
i'm spending my day doing artpad painting stuffs for people.
i sent to germaine one.
and she replied the mail.
lol.
germaine says:
awww. thats so so sweet of you! thanks so much, appreciate it :D i enjoyed being your classmate too (: i will never forget how we wish each good luck for exams the past two years. i will miss those crazy crazy days in G2. all the best for next year! take care, muacks :D
thanks germaine(:
YOU REALLY MADE MY DAY:D <3
well,i'm off to do somemore for people.
hands getting tired.

you ~~bitches~~ kill me.mygawdzzz

2005-10-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

this is getting abnormal.really abnormal.can someone explain?
do you want to leave or stay?i don't get you.but i love you*

2005-10-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

I MADE IT TO SEC 3 EXPRESS.i'm not getting kicked out after all.YAYY.i shall do dedication post.
i'm really gonna miss 2g2.
eventhough we're hardly united(better than last year at least) i wld still miss g2.
it's my first class and the first bunch of people i know in crescent!
aiya,i'll just miss everyone from a-z.
YES,EVERYONE:D
i'm so lazy to list out la ok.
anyway,3s3 here i come.I THINK:D
i dunno.
ah whatever.
G2G BYE:D

2005-10-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously frustrated right now.
the results for 3 subjects are out and it sucks.
english,science and history.
i just screwed up EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THAT
english was a mere 64.I DIDNT EVEN GET AN A2.what the shit!
science was a pathetic c6 which was 52.5
and history was an E8 which was 49!
1 MORE STINKING MARK.
sheesh!
i hate this!
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
and after getting history results,BULLSHIT STUFF HAPPENED
argh
why today?
WHY COULDNT YOU CHOOSE ANOTHER DAY?
ANYTHING BUT TODAY AND TMR
SHEEESH!
you just had to spoil my day didnt you?
i was so freaking happy yesterday and then today,ARGHH
everything's destroyed!
YOU,ASSCLOWN MOTHERFISH!
ok,i shall calm down.
my day is already so bad.
hah.
forget it!

2005-10-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU;D
HEHE:D

go guess who!

2005-10-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

yesterday's post,the first part,not referring to anyone at school.
only jess noes the story i guess.
haha
anyway,I'M SUPPOSE TO BE AT BAND
I WANT TO CRY ALREADY
MY DAD SENT ME A MSG SAYING "I DO NOT ALLOW YOU TO GO FOR BAND IT'S FASTING MONTH BLAH BLAH BLAH"
what bullshit is this you tell me!
sheesh
rahhhhhh
ok,i shall calm down and just buzz with my lovely(well,not exactly) mouthpiece
today school was totally boring!
we didnt do anything but PE
SHEESH
what's the point of coming to school?
BAND
but other than that,NTH
rahh
i got nth much to say
erza,out!:D
i love you* and you* know i do:D

2005-10-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

you said you were putting in good words for me and you were trying to get close to me?WELL WELL WELL,YOU MIGHT JUST WANNA THINK AGAIN!guess what girl,i don't trust you anymore.sad ain't it?i'm losing you.you losing me.aww.SHEESh.WHATEVER!

hello hello..
i'm here to blog yet again..
i don't have an excuse to say i'm busy since well,EOYs are over.
lol.
today left school around 1pm.
i know i was suppose to go for band
but hey,mom asked me to go register for piano exam myself.
ARGHHH.
mom gave me 250 bucks.
boy was i tempted to spend.
lol.
anyway,went to bugis with lisa.
we did window shopping.
2 people with totally different taste
one so guy and one rather girly.
so i got to see what lisa liked.
SHIRT HERE SHIRT THERE.
lisa,i remember something!
we made a sentence to rmb what she wanted to buy.
a CARGO plane past by the BERMUDA's triangle carrying fruits(she wanted green orange and red shirt) with a pilot wearing SINGLET.
hehehe
ok i was total crap today
and then lisa felt so weird looking at sports bras!
hahahahXD
that girl ah.
haiyo
and lisa was like "what's pumps ah what's pumps?"
gundu la she!
i found out loads of things abt lisa today!
hehe:D
so around 2plus went back
i went home to change
went out again
register for piano exam
sheesh.
waited for 10 min JUST FOR A RECEIPT.
bleah
k,done:D

2005-10-14T11:46:00.000+08:00

i didnt go to school today:D
the main reason was actually i couldnt sleep the whole of last night.
i fell asleep at the time i'm suppose to wake up
around 5.30am then i slept.
so mom said dun need to go school.
heh;D
was browsing around for SAE brochures.
I REALLY WANNA GO SAE!
i dun want jc.
i dun want poly.
I WANNA GO SAE
school of audio engineering(:
that's like HOW COOL.
OH,AND THE PAY IS GOOD TOO.
gosh,i'm thinking so ahead.
heck

2005-10-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

THE FINALS ARE OVER!YAHOO:D
like,yayy:D
everything's over!
just the pressure left waiting for the results.
shucks.
so anyway.
yesterday after maths paper went home.
change,relaxed for awhile.
waited for jess and clara at admiralty station
then,went plaza sing together:D
CLARA LOOKED SO POSH:O
haha.
so anyway,we decided to watch dark water!
yeah,jess didnt like the idea of it.
lol.
wasnt fasting.
period came.
hmm.
show was pretty good!:D
quite like it actually
haha.
ah wells.
hmm
i dun feel like blogging all of a sudden.
so,bye!

2005-10-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

hello hello(:
today broke fast at grannie's place.
pretty ok.
quite boring actually?
lol.
before going grannie's place met mom at town.
ANDREA WAS AT TOWN!
i was at shaw house and she was at far east
so sad i couldnt see her =(
ah,nvm.
meeting her SOON:D
anyway,CHEER UP ANDREA DEAR(:
wells,shopping spree with tt girl soon.
WOOTS!
make over make over!*winks*
haha
well i'm done!

2005-10-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

don't say i didnt apologize because i did.like,1094140983 times.sry if you think i was indulging in self-pity.because i wasnt.i just didnt want to make enemies. .i also wanted to say sorry to asilah.it's not my fault if i cannot clique with her right?2 long years i tried to like her i cant.so sue me,i've been putting on a facade all this while.my fault.haiyah.but wait hold up.don't say i didnt take the initiative to hike up a conversation with you ppl because i really tried.but you guys didnt wanna hear anything but just to go on saying my pettiness sucked.so i admit it was my fault.but did you ever ask yourself why i was acting this way?well let me give you a full length story.

i just didnt get you,farina.there you were bitching abt asilah(with me,i admit) and how you were saying you didnt like her to go out with you and stuffs.and 30 mins later where are you?you're hanging out with the exact person you were bitching about.ok la i admit.i was betraying asilah at the same time.eventho i didnt like her,i allowed her to follow anywhere we went.why you ask?i'm the type of person with a nature who cant say no to a person as i'd be guilty later.it's my nature.i dunno if it's the same for you.for sure,i'd love to know.there i said it.why are was being so petty.i dunno if it's the right word but that's it.i wasnt stopping you from having your own social circle.i didnt say you couldnt go and mix around,right?i just didnt understand.all i wanted was to know why.but you thought i was being childish coz i didnt like you going with asilah.correct me if i'm wrong.ask yourself,wouldnt you feel even the slightest bit of insecurity if the person is your bitching partner and then suddenly she goes to the person that the 2 of you just talked abt?well,i would.i did.sue me that i felt so insecure

i've typed that much.i have nth more to say.it's up to you to judge me.i cant say anything else.

2005-10-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

i guess i sort of figured everything out.well,SORT OF at least.life can make a 360 degree turn and yet everything just points back to you.i don't know but it seems like i'm the ~~bitch~~ in this.so just sue me for being a ~~MOTHERFUCKING MORONIC BITCH~~ who was so oblivious about things.i finally realized how things are.bitching begins.we fight.we console.we start from square one.and this thing has been repeating for like,FOREVER.it's so hurtful?i don't know!i honestly tried to cherish every sweet time spent but it seems like nothing works right now.my hatred for you is just so strong that i cant accept you for who you are ever again.and that's funny(not in a haha way).i mean,i try very hard to accept everyone else but i just cant accept you?sometimes i wonder(almost everyday),whether i'm being bias and have never given you a chance or is it you(no offence)?or could it be that we're just not meant to be friends?but whatever it is.i still feel like the moron around.everyone tries their best to like you.and they seem to enjoy time spent with you.maybe i should just ostracize myself.sigh.....
thanks for listening to my problems,ghettokid(: I LOVE YOU:D LOVEloveLOVE!

i just don't know

2005-10-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

i don't know who to trust.
i don't know who are my sincere friends
i don't know who's angry at me.
i don't know who's disappointed in me.
i don't know who believes in me.
i don't know if all this are illusions.
i just don't know.

i really dunno what i feel right now.i'm just simply so lost.i don't know why i am so worked up about all this things.but whoever was there for me when i needed them,THANKS<3(:>
thank ghettokid.I LOVE YOU!:D

c

2005-09-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

com studies now.i just go 1.2o bucks from ms shervon(: eh,so cool la.kwang2,anyway.i dunno what to say la.but,life could have never been better(: HEHEHE:D ok,nvm.NO ONE would understand.ho hum.er.nth much to say.except,i'm freaking bored.oh!people who have tag,THANKS AH.for keeping my blog alive.TAG MORE.lol.FARINA!ok that was random.she ask me to "TULIS NAME AKU BESAR BESAR.LAWA LAWA" ok,wat the hell.forget it la.she say "THANKYOUP VELI MUCH!" wahaha.ok la.i admit i'm typing totally random stuffs here.FELING FELING.kwang2.no one understands but farina and i.ah wells.what to do seh.hmms.well,i'm off

1.I DON'T LIKE YOU* AND I JUST WANNA WHACK YOU* UPSIDE DOWN AND THAT IS SO SAD.HOPE YOU* UNDERSTAND LA ALRITE!
2.I LIKE MY GHETTOKID(: KEKEKE

2005-09-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with farina! damn fun lar ok?OK!ok,that's what i call pure lameness.anyway,I HAD TO WAIT FOR FARINA FOR 25 STINKING MINS.that minah get ready damn slow la!then got gay couple in front of me.read her blog la.haha.i am so lazy to update.ate at far east.took neoprints at heeren.I LIKE MY HAIR IN ON OF THE NEOPRINTS.LOOK NICE.hahah.mat reps take neos very noisy.read farina's blog for more info.lazy to blog la.today skipped tuition(: HEHE.best!anyway,i'm off.erza,OUT!

2005-09-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

civilisation alas!wahaha.so yeah.dad finally fixed my home com so i can finally come online!WHOOPEDEEDOO!alrite sorry.haha.tho my precious tablet pc is in TA.but ah wells.i shall have to make do with my home com.yayy!so well.hmm.nth much to update actually.skipped tuition yesterday.lol.erm.on friday,frisbee marie joy died.sigh...it is a bird btw.it died like,right after jessica and i held it thinking it finally recovered.but turns out it died.ok,i shall stop talking abt it coz it's giving me the creeps.hmm.was reading this newspaper article that bloggers can now actually get sued.and i thought that blogs were a personal space.but i guess it's mainly because those ppl were spreading racist stuffs and they were sending wrong msgs that's why they got sued.hmm.interesting.ah whatever.all i know is,my blog are for me to say abt my day and how i feel and stuffs.not to spread the wrong msg.eh,holy crap.this is full of shit.ah wells,I'M OFF!to go do illegal stuff.RIIGHT.

2005-09-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

hello.still hardly any posts.terribly screwed up.g'day(: hehe.USING THAT MINAH'S COM.kwang2.no la.that AHHHHH woman namely farina.wahaha.oh,she's sulking.AUNTIE I MUNTAH LA.haha.anyway yesterday went je library.high like shit also dunno why.then this bunch of mat rep jr guys then fucked up.called me and farina lesbians coz go toilet tgt.LIKE,HOW IMMATURE.hmmm.CIBAI EH FARINA(: hahah.i didnt hear them call us that la.coz i go jamban already.BUAY TAHAN AH!haha.hmm.heart still very pain la coz havent let out my anger.sit near exit there la.NO,I WASNT BIG ENOUGH TO BLOCK THE EXIT THANK YOU:D heh.k.so i was still waiting to see that mat rep jr guys.lol.FINALLY SAW THEM![victory pose] alah.come i type conversation what happened.only for the malays advantages.coz i spoke very minah la.

me:eh is that the bunch of mat rep?
farina:yeah that one!
me:EH JANTAN BERANI PANGGIL AKU LESBIAN.MARI SINI AH CKP PAK MUKE AKU.ASAL,TAKDE BUAH PE?[ok,yes i know.i shouldnt have said the BUAH pat but who cares.it's true!] [puts on an angry face]
bunch of boys:[RUN AWAY!!!!]
me:[VICTORY POSE BABY!]

kwang2.then!apparently some minah terase la!after i was done talking that is
minah:eh,nak carik gadoh pe?
farina:eh terase pulak!org ckp pak mat rep mat rep jr tu!
me:terase sikit ke bnyk?MACAM GITU EH!
minah:[in her heart it must have been like,OK I SURRENDER.YOU COOL.I LOSER!]

kekeke!KETAWA LA SEMUE.fun je experience.NICE LA NICE.let's go again one day.especially that quotes syira "MACAM KENTAL EH" guy.KWANG2.name shall not be revealed just in case i do die.the gf MIGHT read.and then it will be a permanent absence of post(: HEHE.ok that was shit la!aiyo.later farina scold me la!BYE.oh,just miss my amusement ppl!

ps:interested chinese readers,ASK ME FOR TRANSLATION LA.[smacks head]

2005-09-07T15:21:00.000+08:00

the long absence of post has been because my com crashed.hard disk prob.shucks.sucks.using jessica's com right now.ho hum.thanks la ok.well i'm off.just wanted to announce to the whole world that only.hahaha.BYE(:

2005-08-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

finally.imageless blogskin.I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IMAGELESS SKINS:D hehe.so anyway.i dunno why.but i feel very disappointed with myself after yesterday's band prac.seriously frustrating.it's like I CANT PLAY LOUD.I CANT PLAY GOOD NOTES.like,what am i going to do with myself in band.sigh.really.i was very sad after band prac yesterday D: bleah.sigh oh sigh.i really dunno what to do already.SOMEBODY HELP MAN.oh nvm.so home early today.lalala.i really got nth much to blog.well oh wells.i'm off

I LIKE 4 AND 7 STARS(:

2005-08-21T09:58:00.000+08:00

finally,sentosa concert is OVER!it was all in all really really great!well,came to school around 1.30 or so.took instrument.got ready everything.left at 3.i pity in my instrument.it was in the lorry.god knows what it might have hit D: okok over reacting.haha.ah wells.when we reached the musical fountain it started to drizzle!panic like shit can.later instrument corrode.bleah!so put inside this room really quickly.and everyone ran to viewing gallery.rested there.was seeing the ppl below with hanis.damn bored and we started this who kental(lame in malay) and those sorta thing.haha.after some time we rushed over to some sheltered place.started warming up there.yeah.wasnt very gd at first.but after that quite ok la.then went back to musical fountain with mrs chua(: check weather.LOL.did sound test.6.30,CONCERT STARTED!(: all in all great performance i must say.lol.tho a few parts werent too gd but other than that it was all great.viewed the recording when i got home(: yayy.I LOVE I LOVE.what a memorable concert man!

2005-08-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

found time to update so i guess that's why i'm here.lol.common tests are over.wheewoohooo.ho hum.concert is like in 4 days! and i'm so friggin excited and nervous at the same time.this is weird.lol.but i guess it's common.got malay paper back.damn with this new format, i did badly.shit.but ah wells.what to do.hmm.so today kena shit from azlin.but actually we got off easy.we were given demerit for truancy.that's wat i call lenient.aiya.well,it was the first time i skipped dnt lessons anyway.lol.so yeah.never gonna do it again.i'll just get into bigger shit.ho hum.well,i'm off(:
CONCERT IN 4 DAYS.OH HOW I LOVE SPIRITED AWAY.

2005-08-10T12:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday was tiring yet fun!HAPPY 40TH TO SINGAPORE BTW.tho,i'm one day late but oh whatever.so anyway.met farina at raffles place around 3pm.then after that.we walked around at raffles place and realized got no gd food place.so took train to city hall.then went to marina square and ate cavana.man,that place makes me have a hole in my pocket.lol.then after that walk and walk and walk.god noes how long la.walked to esplanade.I LIKE.lol.then we wanted to go to library.funny man.cannot go up escalator so wanted to take elevator.but it was like so scary coz when we pressed "3" the button didnt light up.twice we got in.but end up we were so scared to take lift we just left and walked at one fullerton.man,the place was jammed pack.walk and walk and walk.and we reached raffles place again.LOL.then decided to go bugis.the village is gd.a lot of cheap AND good stuff.hey,i'm not all that branded.unlike some.lol.so walk and walk.everything we saw we were like ok this must buy,that must buy.but we obviously didnt have enough money.haha.maybe next week i'll get those stuff.WOOHOO.hmms.then around 6.40pm we decide to leave.took mrt.TO RAFFLES PLACE AGAIN.gosh,the mrt was so packed we cld hardly move la.sheesh.then farina wanted to alight at city hall.we wld have been so unlucky if we did.coz i heard you couldnt walk coz the place was seriously packed.tsk.so hmm.alighted.then we went to just rest for awhile at cavenagh bridge area.a lot of ppl waiting to see fireworks.lol.around 7.30 dad called and said we could go into fullerton hotel already.farina felt very posh!wahaha.she was like TAKE PICTURE TAKE PICTURE.ahaha.funny like shit la.but seriously,the place was so empty that we thought we were the only ones there.then dad came.brought us to 8th level.this balcony area.just below the rooftop.there was this english guy there.and he was like laughing at us taking pictures feeling posh.lol.farina made me take a picture carrying her handbag.lol.i look weird like shit.i dun mind anyway.ho hum.hah.so yeah.THE FIREWORKS WERE SIMPLY GREAT.go to farina's blog ones she has updated the pic.IT WAS SIMPLY AMAZING I LOVE THE GRAND FINALE.the sounds were kinda too loud it kept giving me shocks.lol.then after that it was over already.then we left and sad at burger king.saw this guy.and i was like "oh,hot!but old..." lol.farina agreed.wahaha.then after that we had to find a toilet.nearest was esplanade!gosh.cld just faint.then dad said he leaving hotel already so left with him.fetched mom.and had supper.and i soon slept in the care.lol.YEAH OUTING YESTERDAY WAS GREAT.woots!wheeeeeeee

2005-08-07T13:12:00.000+08:00

oh i'm so weird.my latest addiction is like JAZZ.oh actually loved jazz long time ago.then i left that world for awhile.and now i'm back to my jazz world.JAZZ IS WHAT I CALL MUSIC(: and hiphop and rnb and soul(: yeah oh yeah.and some types of rock(but pls no hardcore headbanging stuff) and JAZZ.lol.hehe.i finally bought kenny g's album.for all those who dunno, he's a saxophone player who plays jazz.make that soprano sax!i really think the band shld have a soprano sax player.it's damn cool.it would be better than to have an english horn player or whatever.KENNY G ROCKS.woots woots.heh(: jess got me addicted to dishwalla.gosh.didnt noe my fren had the whole album!so borrowed.imported.and it's damn gd(: .DISHWALLA AND KENNY G. i could just swing all day(: bye(:

beneathe the smiles are just my painful sorrows.and yet i'm so concerned with you being happy.

2005-08-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY WANT THE GROUND TO OPEN UP AND SWALLOW ME WHOLE.I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE FUCK LATELY.

2005-08-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

if you think me you know me well enough then you're wrong
if you think i'm doing all this just to get attention then you're wrong
if you think i'm that tolerant and will take every single shit of yours then you're wrong
if you think that when your angry and you think i wld console you then you're wrong
if you think that when i cry i like it that you guys ask me if i'm ok, then you're wrong(SO FUCKING WRONG)
if you think you're the only with attitude and tantrums,then you're wrong
if you think you're the only one who can shoot words directly into my face, you're ~~fucking~~ wrong
if you think you're the only one stressed, then your effing wrong
ARGH.JUST FUCK EVERYTHING ALREADY
let the ground open up and swallow me whole.i'm sure no one will miss me.